Monday, December 16, 2013

10 Positive Changes I've Noticed

Or, How I Gave Up the Standard American Diet and Started Loving Life

 



It has been almost exactly 4 months since I started eating paleo and exercising regularly.  In that time, a lot of things that have nothing to do with those lifestyle changes have occurred: I have left my job, transitioned my private practice to online therapy, moved across the country, started shacking up with my parents (temporarily), and begun my new job search.  So obviously there have been a lot of big changes in my life that have nothing to do with working out or eating Real Food... but after Friday's post, I decided to look back and see what else has changed as a result of my food and fitness changes in the last third of a year.  And to my surprise, I was able to list 10 things.

1. Weight Loss

Obviously, this outcome wasn't unanticipated.  If I had to say one thing that drove me to start thinking about making these changes, it was wanting to lose a few pounds.  I've never had major weight problems (thank goodness) but I was a little bit overweight and wanted to make some changes before I get older and it gets harder.  

I have no problem sharing things like my weight on the internet... so here are my stats before and after:

Before:
Weight - 156 pounds
Pants size - 14

After:
Weight - 139 pounds
Pants size - 10 (but loose fitting - might be about time to go shopping for size 8)

Alternately, they say a picture is worth 1000 words, so here are some of those:


October 1, 2013

December 15, 2013
 Nothing earth-shattering, but not bad, eh?

2. Attention Span

I'm not going to spend too much time on this one because I wrote extensively about it the other day here, but long story short in case you missed that one - I've struggled to varying degrees with ADD my entire life, and I think eating paleo and exercising regularly has really helped me overcome some of the symptoms.

3. Increased Energy

I wake up earlier and with more energy.  Accounting for variables, I typically feel strong and happy throughout the day.  I need less sleep to feel equally refreshed.  Some of this might be related to increased strength from working out my muscles, but I think a lot of it is also that when I eat a slab of meat and a bunch of veggies, my body takes less energy to process that than the grains, dairy, sugar, and processed stuff I used to eat - so guess where that energy goes?  Yep, you guessed it - me!

And exercising is also a huge contributor to my increased level of energy!  Here's a research-based article that validates what I've experienced firsthand in this regard.

This doesn't just affect my ability to run farther or the amount of sleep I need... it also affects my ability to engage in lots of different kinds of recreational activities with more stamina and endurance than I've ever had in my life!

4. Pop your bones?

10 points to anyone who got the Izzard reference there.
As long as I can remember, I have been a very crackly human being.  Sitting in class, I'd crack my neck, my back, my elbows, my knees, my knuckles.  I'd hyper-extend my arms in the middle of a therapy session and watch my clients cringe in reaction.  One client used to be so attuned to it that I would straighten my arm and pause, and he'd say "oh, just do it," so I would and then we could get on with the session.  Isn't that awful?

I'm not saying I've stopped popping body parts entirely, but I definitely feel a less frequent need to do so.  My body feels less tense and more limber, so I don't need to do that as often... which is nice, because I think it really grosses some people out.

5. Mindfulness

I don't eat anything unless I know what's in it - or at least I try not to.  This makes me really annoying at restaurants.  I'm that girl saying, "oh, can you ask the chef whether this is cooked in olive oil or canola oil?"  and "do you mind finding out whether this salmon is wild caught or farm raised?"  Sometimes, depending on my mood and a lack of desire to annoy whoever I'm with, I suck it up a little.  I'll eat grain-fed steak or farm-raised salmon if I'm at a restaurant with four other people and I didn't have a chance to call ahead.  But across the board, eating paleo has made me more aware of every single thing I put in my mouth.
Like this, fresh from the tree

Related and equally as important, I'm mindful about how I choose to spend my time.  Do I really need to sit and play Candy Crush (not my stated priority), or would that time be better spent going for a walk around my neighborhood or cooking or doing squats and push-ups?  My time is valuable, and I get to choose how I spend it... so perhaps it would be better spent on my health (or intellectual pursuits, or job search, or connecting with the amazing people in my life) than on something frivolous.

I'm going to make a somewhat radical statement here - I actually think mindfulness is the cornerstone of all effective diets.  If you eat paleo, great!  But if you count calories or go vegan or eliminate sugar... that's all that matters, really, is that you're making a change that causes you to think about everything you put in your mouth and ask yourself "where did this come from?  What's in it?"

6. Internal Locus of Control

Ok, a quick psych 101 lesson on competence and empowerment: Basically, in every situation, each person has what's called a "locus of control."  What this means is that we look at a situation and decide whether or not we have any ability to impact it.  Here's a graphic demonstrating that continuum:

So let's say, for example, that I'm going to a job interview and I believe that I have 100% control over whether or not I get the job.  That would be an internal locus of control.  The converse would be if I believe that there's nothing at all that I can do to exert influence over whether or not I get the job, which would be called an external locus of control.  In most situations, the truth lies somewhere in the middle.  I can prepare for the interview, research the company, wear something that makes me look presentable, do continuing education to accrue knowledge that would help me in the job, etc.  But on the other hand, I don't know who else is interviewing, I don't know whether they're leaning towards promoting from within, I don't know if I look like the interviewer's wife's sister who he hates... there are a lot of factors out of my control.  So it's important to keep a balanced perspective.

What the research shows, though, is that happy, optimistic, and empowered people have a more internal locus of control.  They believe that there are things they can do to change the outcome of their situation.  This makes a great deal of sense, because if you feel that there's nothing you can do to better your life, you learn to feel helpless.  (I suppose some Buddhist-leaning folks would disagree with me on that, but in any event it rings true to my experience.)

So here's how this all ties in:  I've always conceptualized myself as an unfit person.  I hated PE in school, I didn't have anything inside me compelling me to play sports or go to the gym...  and as long as that was a Truth rather than a Thing That Was True In The Moment, it was going to drag me down.  But when I decided to eat right and exercise, suddenly I found that I wasn't an unfit person.  (Well, I was at first but I got over it - which is actually my whole point.)  Instead I was a person who had never really tried to be fit.

Well if that's true... if I can lift heavy things, have greater stamina and endurance, be thinner, and feel healthier... what else can I do?  Can I learn a language?  An instrument?  Master a new topic in my field?  Having achieved what I have so far (and, mind you, I still have a long way to go) builds my feeling that I have the ability to learn things and improve through regular, deliberate practice.  In other words, I feel more motivated to take on anything I want to learn, because I'm not bad at it - I'm just a newbie.

7. Decreased interest in junk food

"I'm going to eat this whole bag through the course of one movie!"


I've always had quite the sweet tooth.  The answer to the question "Candy?" has always been "Yes, please."  When I first started eating paleo, I had to avoid the junk food aisles at the grocery store.  If I had to pick up walnuts from the baking aisle or tea from the aisle that also has candy, it was an extreme exercise in self-control.

Now that stuff simply doesn't interest me.  When I think about the Skittles in the picture above, I think, "wow, there's a lot of junk I can't even pronounce in those."  I expected avoiding junk food to always be hard - and to a degree, especially with baked goods, it can be.  But not grabbing a handful of Cheetos or binging on sweets is kind of a no-brainer for me at this point.

8. Digestive Health

I'm going to spend only minimal time on this section because I can already hear people reading this and thinking "yuck, TMI!"  But I will say, in as non-scatalogical a way as I can think to describe it, that I have struggled with digestive issues for several years.  Close friends knew that I would regularly be on the phone with them driving home and I would suddenly get an immense urge to use the bathroom, with no warning or prep time.  I always made it fine, but sometimes just barely.
Since eating paleo, I have not had this problem.  Not once.  In fact, initially the opposite happened.  My doctor recommended a probiotic, and I started eating bacon (making sure, of course, that I could pronounce all the ingredients) on a regular basis so that the fat from it would get things moving.  I've already spent too much time on this topic here, but I thought it was too significant a change to not mention it.  

9. Strength

I brought a box to the post office about 2 weeks ago.  It was a little bit heavy, and I was certainly glad to set it down on the counter, but it was also pretty manageable and didn't feel like the maximum capacity I could have handled.  I lifted with my legs rather than my back and carried it to the teller.  She looked at me, dumbfounded, and asked, "did you carry this inside by yourself?"

"Um... yes?"

"This box is over 50 pounds!"

Whoa.

Cognitively, I knew that when I started doing strength training, I would get stronger.  I mean, that's the whole point, right?  I was frustrated at first because I'd go to the gym and struggle to do barbell rows with 30 pounds while right next to me was a girl deadlifting 180.  Since my move, my gym membership has ended and I've been doing workouts at home with my bodyweight instead of at the gym with barbells... but I've noticed a significant increase in my strength.

When I started my strength training regimen, I couldn't do a full squat.  Instead, I found myself doing what Nerd Fitness calls "power curtsies," which means that my thighs were at a greater than 90 degree angle to my calves.  Now, not only can I do squats, but for the first time in my life, I can do push-ups!  Honestly, prior to starting this, I would huff and puff just doing knee push-ups... now I can do at least 10 consecutive regular ones!  

Again, deliberate practice yields results!  Awesome!

10. Long-Term Health Benefits

Ok, this one might be cheating because it isn't something I've noticed yet... but all I know is that if I keep up the good work, I'll be healthier in the long run.  (Also, 10 was a really nice, pretty number for this list.)

Any time in the past that I've wanted to whip myself into shape and prioritize diet and especially exercise, the thing that has motivated me most is reading studies about cognitive decline later in life.  Everything I've read on the subject says that if you exercise regularly in your 20s and 30s, you're less likely to develop Alzheimer's and dementia in your senior years.  They've studied this.  There's a definite link.  

And, well, I like my brain.  It's where I keep all my thoughts and memories, and it's where I store my analytic ability.  I use it to win at strategy games, remember stories, think about laughter, sunny days, first kisses, songs I've sung.  And so if spending a few hours a week doing something active is going to help me hang onto all of that... you bet I'm going to keep doing what I'm doing!

Friday, December 13, 2013

Eating Habits and Attention Span



I owe you guys a whole bunch of posts. I definitely realize that.  I have photos of food from my going away party and Thanksgiving, and I have insights from eating nothing but the stuff I brought with me on a 4-day road trip.  But today I'm thinking about other things, because yesterday I did something I haven't done for a long time - I ate CRAP.

I'm not talking about when I go to a restaurant and order a steak even though it's grain-fed rather than grass-fed, or that time I was out on a date and the guy said "oh let's get this awesome eggplant salad" and I asked the server if they could put the feta on the side and the server said "nope, it's in the dressing" and I said "yeah, ok, I guess I'll have it anyway even though dairy isn't part of my paleo diet" because the salad sounded pretty awesome and also the boy's smile was adorable and charming.  (How's that for a crazy long sentence?) 

(Also, it's worth noting that *some* people who eat paleo DO eat small amounts of high-fat dairy, but I choose not to because I'm better at eliminating foods than moderating them.)

No, I'm talking about full on ate crap all day.  I didn't mean to, but sometimes things happen.

You see, I'm at a conference this weekend.  It's an amazing conference called The Evolution of Psychotherapy Conference and all of my heroes are here.  For those of you to whom this means anything, some of the featured names on the roster are John and Julie Gottman, Irvin Yalom, Sue Johnson, Mary Pipher, Martin Seligman, Donald Wing Sue, Salvador Minuchin, Peter Levine, Scott Miller, Marsha Linehan, and the list just goes on and on.  Basically, every time I buy a book that's about therapy, they invite the author to this conference - I'm pretty sure that's how it works. 

Anyway, the conference is in Anaheim and I'm staying with a friend who lives in Orange County, about a 20 minute drive away.  I left for yesterday's sessions a little later than I intended, so I didn't have the chance to pop across the street from where I'm staying to Panera and order off their paleo-friendly Hidden Menu.  That's ok - there are food trucks parked outside the hotel.

I got to the conference, parked, and made a run towards Michelle Weiner-Davis's workshop on doing couples therapy by working with just one partner... but I'm a mess if I don't eat in the morning.  (Some people who eat paleo practice intermittent fasting and don't eat until noon.  I think that would really mess me up.)  So I stopped at a food truck and ordered their only breakfast option - a breakfast burrito.  It had eggs and bacon, which are friendly, but also potatoes and cheese and a tortilla, which are definitely all against the rules.  Then for lunch I had a burger, which I ordered without the bun - just the patty, lettuce, and tomato... but I guess maybe in "super busy food truck" language, "lettuce and tomato" actually means "a ridiculous amount of very greasy cheese," because that's what I got instead.  I followed all the rules for a very nice dinner with my parents (except my amazing filet mignon was corn-fed, not grass-fed, but that's a really minor transgression in the scheme of things) but by that point it was too late.

The reason I'm ratting myself out here is that I noticed something amazing: all day yesterday, I was incredibly inattentive. 

Now this will require a bit of back story.  I've always have issues with focusing, to some degree.  When I was a kid, I was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder because I would constantly fidget and daydream.  It really caused me a lot of problems in school.  I frequently got in trouble in class, and even though I was "really smart," teachers observed that I "couldn't focus" and "didn't seem to be living up to my potential."  My mom, ever the motivated and proactive parent, brought me to specialists.

I underwent a slew of different treatments.  I went to a therapist who taught me about "the focused position," which was both feet on the floor, back straight, shoulders down, head up like it was being lifted by a string.  That didn't work very well because all I could think about was whether I was sitting correctly.  I tried medications - I don't remember specifically which ones, but I know I was on Ritalin in 10th grade because someone told me it worked wonders for them and I asked permission to try it.  I went to a chiropractor who did what was probably the most effective treatment I had undergone... but the effects only lasted for about a day or so.  I regularly went for EEG Biofeedback where I tried to learn how to control my brain through really boring games.  It's worth noting that the narrative I have associated with this slew of treatments when I think back on it was, "wow, my parents really cared and wanted to do everything they could to try to help me," so I'm not upset by this, but it's a lot.  And ultimately, nothing really worked.

The only thing that did eventually seem to work was deciding that I cared enough to prioritize focusing.  That didn't really happen in a big way until graduate school.  I got really unimpressive grades in college, but in graduate school I had a 3.975.  (Thanks, psychopharmacology, for screwing up my 4.0 with an A-!)  So the story has a happy ending, which is that I found a career I love and when I'm learning about it, I buckle down and focus... not because my brain chemistry has shifted (at least not that I know of), but because when I'm passionate about something, it's not hard to pay attention.  My mind still wanders when stuff is uninteresting to me, but I mainly indulge in the things that fascinate me so it's not really a big deal.  (A psychiatrist I worked alongside once said to me that the best cure for ADHD is to "be interested in everything.")

But here's the thing - yesterday, I COULD NOT FOCUS.  Seriously, it was awful.  Part of it might have been that I'm feeling anxious about job searching and uncomfortable with the fact that I don't have an outlet to do therapy here in LA yet... but it was more than that.  Try as I might, I could not make myself focus on my workshops.  And we're not talking boring workshops.  We're talking about John and Julie Gottman, the parents of contemporary couples therapy, talking about how to build trust and treat infidelity.  Now that's some awesome and fascinating stuff!

Today I planned better.  I got up early and went to Panera where I ate two eggs, some steak, and half an avocado for breakfast.  And I went to six different workshops:

1. Sue Johnson and the Gottmans talking about infidelity
2. Bessel Van der Kolk and a few others talking about anxiety disorders
3. Peter Levine, Mary Pipher, and others talking about PTSD
4. Derald Wing Sue talking about recognizing and combating microaggressions to provide more competent treatment to minorities
5. Irvin Yalom talking about the history of psychotherapy
6. Martin Seligman doing a Q&A

And compared to yesterday, it was like night and day.  All this makes me wonder whether among other things, the standard American diet contributes to the high rate of ADD (well, ADHD inattentive type - thanks for that cumbersome change, DSM) among children.  If kids ate paleo (and I'm not trying to be preachy - just curious), would the rate of those diagnoses decrease?

Grain-free food for thought, in any event.